okc sartre.

me: ugh i can’t send it i’m dead
e: … just do it omg
e: nothing—or at least nothing we do—is inherently meaningful
me: haha i did
e: you may just as well cast a pebble into the ocean as—
me: i subsequently messaged someone else SO THERE
e: 
oh okay cool
e: HAHAHAHA
e: /JPSARTRINGyou
e: i should totally put this under my “you should msg me if” hahaha
e: “nothing we do is inherently meaningful, so messaging someone on OkCupid is akin to casting a pebble into the vast ocean. …so do it, if you want.”

one time j and I were waiting for the train and there was a platform ad with a guy saying “apathy is not my problem” and we spent a long time trying to logic it into making sense.

me:my phone just autocorrected "josh" to "isfj"
josh:...
me:i text about myers briggs too much

I drew a Hangouts doodle of my brother (“Broseph”) and he made versions for the rest of us (“Sising” is me).

I don’t know why our father has a mustache because he actually doesn’t.

jamesganas:

new visual poem “for aquarius” from pop serial 5, which you can buy or browse here

jamesganas:

new visual poem “for aquarius” from pop serial 5, which you can buy or browse here

Sometimes while I ride the subway I try to look at each person and imagine what they look like to someone who is totally in love with them. I think everyone has had someone look at them that way, whether it was a lover, or a parent, or a friend, whether they know it or not. It’s a wonderful thing, to look at someone to whom I would never be attracted and think about what looking at them feels like to someone who is devouring every part of their image, who has invisible strings that are connected to this person tied to every part of their body. I think this fun pastime is a way of cultivating compassion. It feels good to think about people that way, and to use that part of my mind that I think is traditionally reserved for a tiny portion of people I’ll meet in my life to appreciate the general public. I wish I thought about people like this more often. I think it’s the opposite of what our culture teaches us to do. We prefer to pick people apart to find their flaws. Cultivating these feelings of love or appreciation for random people, and even for people I don’t like, makes me a more forgiving and appreciative person toward myself and people I love. Also, it’s just a really excellent pastime.

I do not have a prescription for successful relationships, and I don’t think anyone should. The goal of most of my work is to remove coercive mechanisms that force people to comply with heteronormative gender and family norms. People often get confused and think that me and other trans activists are trying to erase gender and make everyone be androgynous. In fact, that sounds a little boring to me. What want to see is a world in which people do not have to be criminalized, or cast out of their family, or cut off welfare, or sexually harassed at school, or subjected to involuntary mental health care, or prevented from getting housing because they organize their gender, desire, or family structure in a way that offends a norm. I hope we can build that vision by practicing it in our own queer and activist communities and in our approaches to ourselves. Let’s be gentle with ourselves and each other and fierce as we fight oppression.
Growing up, I didn’t read novels by women. It’s not that I didn’t want to. It’s almost like I didn’t think that I needed to or, I guess, I didn’t know that I needed to. I was perfectly happy in a world contained by men. I adopted the posture of the brooding male as my own. I was Salinger, I was Kerouac, I was any male protagonist in a novel that one of my boyfriends recommended. I didn’t know that there was a specific female sadness so I was content with relating to a generalized one. And in a way, reading these novels was less of a way to relate and more of a way to learn how to be the type of girl that these male novelists liked. One of my first ambitions wasn’t to be a writer – it was to be a writer’s muse.
intent:

My Intent Is to Be the Source of My Own Inner Light

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intent:

My Intent Is to Be the Source of My Own Inner Light

Read my intent on Intent.com here!